GOALS FOR 2k12 :
-get rid of my chubby cheeks & have a toned stomach . stupid fat …. Go to like my ass or something aha
-more productive & active
Lololol, I’m like posting non stop
But yeah this is the view .
It was worth the walk .
but the bug bites that bruised up te next morning , no *____*
I actually wanted to campout there ahaha it was such an amazing view that cleared my mind .
I never knew being in that spot i can see the sight of everything at once,
Then I remembered Andrew . I remembered he’d always ask if I wanted to sneak out @ night with him & his friends just to kick it at this spot . I wish I wasn’t so insecure back then & said yeah .
i wish the whole city turned off their lights so I can spot all the stars lol. Damn thatd beautiful .
Recap of yesterday !
Hiking up @ sleepy hallow (:
Damn, my cheeks are inflating .
I gotta stawp eating unhealthy
So like my mom offered me a job,
I get paid 8$ an hour for filing .
~_~ she says by the end of the week I can buy myself a new phone
Like finally ! I’ve had this cracked iPhone since September .
I think I’m giving up my iPhone for a keyboard/slide touch phone lol
Should I nawt
Ugh idk ~ lol.
I’m so indecisive
I forgot this account exists. Damn looking through all this old posts gives me flashbacks ~
& latley I haven’t been myselff.
like I go to bed happy,
But once I wake up in the morning negative thoughts trigger my mind ;
I try to keep myself busy to avoid these assumptions~ like rly I do ,
I clean or something & put my earphones on full blast drowning myself with music
not to sound too holy or anything, but I actually do talk to God & pray to kindlyask to put things back to normal.
I’m guessing this is just a phase . But I feel like I’m going through it alone .
I want someone to ease my mind & making me feel better by saying
” hey I won’t leave you” or ” I won’t give up on you ” idk some shit like that, corny but filled with meaning .
I’m irritating myself & I absolutely hate it . Maybe I just need a new group of friends who sets off twice as much of a better vibe . I want the happy me again. Well I’m not like emotionally depressed that i wanna kill myself NOPE NOPE NOPE
I just wanna be surrounded by great company . I wanna explore , I want to do things I said I’d never do ( drugs not included ) .
I wanna be carefree. Not having to worry about the future .
The future scares me , and that’s another thing , i no longer wanna be scared anymore .
I guess I just for once , want someone to be afraid to be loosing me . I’m always the one who’s known to be understanding , patient , & caring blahblahblah
I wanna know how it feels to be the opposite & experience how great it feels to be cared or wanted etc idkkk .
I’m really bad at explaining myself .
I just wanna focus on what’s now , enjoy & laughhh , & not look back not fear what’s ahead .
And as I do that, I wanna see the progress I make through my Polaroid pictures (which I’ve been lagging on buying a film for -___-)
Yeah. K .
OH YKNOW . . LAZY DAY WITH FAGGOTASS BESTFRIEND ,aha. & man-handled him 6 tiomes on BOPS (= im satisfieeeed w/ that much kill streaks as a noobieee. LOL.
I waxed , WELL Joanna waxed most of them por me , my boyfriends leg ahead of time for his dustbowl .
I PUT HIM THROUGH ALOTTA PAIN (=
- bought my bby vanilla ice-cream for his wisdom teeth
- Became a psychologist & two people cried on my shoulder today . DR . DING A LING @ YO SERVICE
- halo reach w/ bebeh
-KBBQ w/ fam for the first time ! DELICIOUSSS.
Marinated beef FTW.
& now I’m sleeping next to my beeeestie who’s very ill(: